Truth is…

I haven’t liked you since 9th grade… I’ve liked you since 7th when I met you at Alex’s birthday party… I don’t know why, cause I had just met you, but the second i was introduced i started crushing. Hard… Every time i saw you since that time on I got butterflies in my tummy… insane. crazy. butterflies… in 9th grade, we were put in the same art class. I couldn’t believe it… I got to do my favorite thing in the world, in a class my crush was in. I got to sit with you, I got to paint with you, I got to talk with you, and get to know you better.. It only made that little crush i had stronger.. after art class was over, we’d talk on and off. On and off. yet the crush i had never faded.. Now a couple years later, i’m dating you… kinda weird.. I never thought i’d have the chance.. but i did. It made me the happiest person in the world… Today’s our 5 month.. But i don’t get to hangout with you so I’m just kind of depressed because I’ve been looking forward to it all week… and I know i’ve been a total bitch today… but i just want you to know that I love you to death… I know I’m hard to handle a lot of the time.. and i tend to get mad at you a lot, and i may get jealous a lot.. but that’s only because i’m afraid i might lose you.. I don’t want to do that. I’m insanely glad we’ve been able to hit 5 months though<3 I hope we can get to 6, then 7, then maybe 8.. I love you to death, and I’m extremely glad that I can call you mine. I’m sorry for being hard to deal with sometimes.. I really do love you though<3

i hate all of this.